It was winter break at university in Madison, Wisconsin. There was a snowstorm that covered the city with a still white haze.

Not a single person in the streets. I was sitting on my bed with a cheap keyboard and a computer, screaming into the void.

I barely remember writing the songs. It was a chaotic point in my life. I had no time to think about process or intent.

It was a purge. I do remember taking a break from recording, bundling up, and walking through the barren streets while listening to the demos I'd made.

The world, at once, felt clear. These songs were a huge leap of faith back then. It was my first time singing without layers of distortion, echo, and reverb.

It was the first time I peeled back the layers to find out what was at the core. I'm still on that path today, seeing how far I can push myself into unknown places, whether through clarification or destruction.

It's like Stridulum's still here with me, underneath it all." -Nika Roza Danilova